Is anyone else like this?
Aug 2, 2015 14:13:28 GMT -5
Post by grawolf on Aug 2, 2015 14:13:28 GMT -5
I'm a serious person.
No, really. I take myself and other people very seriously. I think about situations and my feelings as very important matters. I only hide my seriousness behind a mask of jokes and laughter. I guess deep down inside I want to be taken seriously. I don't like being thought of as a joke. I think no one does, I mean who likes being laughed at?
Yeah, I try to be funny and goof around with strangers, acquaintances, even close friends. Mostly because I just want to see people smile and laugh. I like seeing people happy, especially if it was my doing. Doesn't everyone? But it bothers me when I'm called stupid or clumsy, even when it's just a joke. Even my close friends and family members joke about it and it bothers me. I never really talked about it... till now, that is.
Another thing people don't usually think until they know me for a while is that I have a hair-trigger temper. I get irritated VERY easily and these days it feels like every little thing makes me want to punch a wall or cry, or both. I think the problem is, I let my emotions take over way too much.
It's weird because I really want to be the calm kind of person who can sit still for more then one minute at a time. I deeply admire calm people. But I'm a very fast-paced, impatient person. Heck, if a song is too calm and too slow I get impatient. It's a miracle I can actually watch movies all the way through. I have no idea how I'm gonna last as a film director, though.
Are these feelings unusual? I have no idea, nobody else really talks about it much. If they are, well, that's just another thing to add to the 'list of things that make me unique but simultaneously make me feel like an alien visiting another planet and having no idea what they're doing'. It's a very interesting list.
I wanted to come back on so I could talk to you guys again ^^ I'll try to have that dumb story of mine done by this winter. By the way, just a heads up... the plot has changed a lot. Also, new avatar, featuring a character from it. I love him. You'll love him. He's fantastic.
No, really. I take myself and other people very seriously. I think about situations and my feelings as very important matters. I only hide my seriousness behind a mask of jokes and laughter. I guess deep down inside I want to be taken seriously. I don't like being thought of as a joke. I think no one does, I mean who likes being laughed at?
Yeah, I try to be funny and goof around with strangers, acquaintances, even close friends. Mostly because I just want to see people smile and laugh. I like seeing people happy, especially if it was my doing. Doesn't everyone? But it bothers me when I'm called stupid or clumsy, even when it's just a joke. Even my close friends and family members joke about it and it bothers me. I never really talked about it... till now, that is.
Another thing people don't usually think until they know me for a while is that I have a hair-trigger temper. I get irritated VERY easily and these days it feels like every little thing makes me want to punch a wall or cry, or both. I think the problem is, I let my emotions take over way too much.
It's weird because I really want to be the calm kind of person who can sit still for more then one minute at a time. I deeply admire calm people. But I'm a very fast-paced, impatient person. Heck, if a song is too calm and too slow I get impatient. It's a miracle I can actually watch movies all the way through. I have no idea how I'm gonna last as a film director, though.
Are these feelings unusual? I have no idea, nobody else really talks about it much. If they are, well, that's just another thing to add to the 'list of things that make me unique but simultaneously make me feel like an alien visiting another planet and having no idea what they're doing'. It's a very interesting list.
I wanted to come back on so I could talk to you guys again ^^ I'll try to have that dumb story of mine done by this winter. By the way, just a heads up... the plot has changed a lot. Also, new avatar, featuring a character from it. I love him. You'll love him. He's fantastic.